Most of my days have been completely and utterly overwhelming.
You may laugh because I often appear to be the most carefree and happy person on God's green earth.
And in many ways I am.
But yet there is this real side to life that we are in the middle of that hurts to the deep corners of my heart.
This morning Adam had a dentist appointment that ended in immediate oral surgery for a tooth extraction.
As I lay in the back of the car trying to catch up on some sleep that was lost last night
every brave and courageous feeling in my heart left.
From the bills to the house projects
the constant lack of funds
the family situations that ache so deeply
plans for the future
harsh words that slip out
the three jobs I try to juggle
Why is it so easy to feel the bravery
So easy to forget God's promises
to forget that He is using these trials in our lives for a greater purpose?!
Am I just talking to Nicole here
or have you felt these feelings before?!
I share because transparency is good for the soul.
I share because maybe you are walking through these same struggles yourself.
Together we can pray for peace to fill our hearts
as we cling to promises like this from Psalms
I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
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I am so thankful for this rock of a man that God has put in my life.
His patience and love are like a salve to my soul.
As is the simple beauty of this wonderful time of year.
:: decorating the tree at the family's house
:: pinecones and red ribbons
:: the cheery kitchen window
:: welcome to our home
:: homemade rustic pears